Friday, May 22, 2009
Just Let It Go.. ♥ 6:00 AM
I Don't Think This Post Requires A Time Check. I Just Want To Say What I Got To Say.
I gotta say what's in my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try,
somehow the plan is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok..
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own away
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up and
I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to greyand
it's just too hard to watch it all slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause
I've gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok..
Yeah, Disney Was Playing HSM2 Just Now & When I Heard This Song, I Just Got Abit More Assured With What I Want To Do.
Everyone Should Be Truthful To TheirSelves Right? I've Been Living A Lie For Long Enough. What Do You Get By Pleasing Someone Else Knowing That That's Not You At All. Im That Girl Who Looks In The Mirror Every Morning, Makes Funny Faces Of Herself & Laugh About It. Go To School Like A Kuku-In-The Head Girl That Shares Her Smile With Everybody Despite Not Even Liking Some. Im A Nice Girl For All I Know Unless You Dare Play Punk With Me Or Take Advantage Of Me. & NEVER, I MEAN NEVER, Am I Going To Stay Quiet While Someone Pushes Me Around, Just Cause, Im Younger.
I Only Realised It All When One Day Chan Asked Me, "Godd Uma! You're So Crazy, I Wonder
How 'He' Handles You". I Laughed Abit, Thought Through & Said, "Chan, You Mean To Say, You'll Do All This Infront Of 'Him'? He Wouldn't Stare At You And Say Stop? All This Crazy Things? I've Never Behaved This Way To 'Him' &... " I Just Couldn't Complete My Sentence. I Thought Real Hard About It Throughout The Day. & Yes, When Im With 'You', Im A Total Different Person. Do I Even Dare Say Whatever I Wanted. Or If I Wanted To Talk To You About The Happenings In School, You've Never Failed To Shut Me Up After Just My Third Sentence At Most. You'll Say You Aint Interested.
Honestly, After That Day, It Made Me Realise, The One You've Been With, Wasn't Uma Mageswari D/o Ravindran. Maybe By Appearance, Yes, It Was Me, But All The Other Things, Attitude, Character, Bubbly-Ness, They Weren't Me At All. They Were Just That Girl You Wanted Me To Be. & Sadly, Without Me Realising, I Played Along. I Became The Girl You Wanted Me To Be. But Thank God, It Was Only With You That I Behaved That Way. With The Others, I Was Still Myself. Maybe That's Why Nothing Else With The Girls Changed. We Could Crank Up All Kinds Of Lame Jokes & Still Laugh Our Heart's Content Out. Till The Others Around Us Would Stare At Us.
I Want To Be Myself Again. That Girl Who Worries About Nothing, But Whether That Smile Is Still Stuck To Her Face. Cause She Know's Nothings Going To Bring Her Down. The Girl Who Skips To School Despite Turning 17. That Girl Who Still Loves To Balance Herself On Those Sidewalks. The Girl Who's Ever So Hyper Active Like Crazy, Like She's Taken The Whole Stockpile Of Sugar. That Girl Who Sings & Hums To Her Favorite Song Of The Day Throughout Till She Hits The Bed. That Girl Whos Greeting Everybody, Sometimes Even People She Dosen't Know. That Girl Who Dances In Public Despite All The On-Lookers. The Girl Who Looks Up The Sky Each Time The Day's Going To End & Whisper, "Thanks For Everything, I Had The Best Day Ever", Followed By A Flying Kiss. Yeah, I Want To Be That Girl Again.
You Know, When You Love Someone, All You Wana Do Is See Them Smile, Laugh Like There's No Tomorrow. & If Leaving You Is What Makes Them Happy, Though You Know It's The Uttmost Hurt You're Going To Go Through, You Say, Fly Butterfly, You're Now Free. & Honestly, If Anger Is What You're Feeling, Then That Was Never Love, That Was Just A Whole New Something. & If You Feel Like Giving Some Of Your Best Shots In The Form Of Violence, Then She Was Just Your Punching Bag All Along. This Bag That Was There For You Whenever You Just Needed To Vent Your Anger On Something.
I Did Everything I Could. I Swear. I Made Mistakes, I Do Admit Them. But I Changed, For You, For The Better, Because I Loved You. Because I Assumed You Were My Everything, The Shoulder I Could Ly On. For SomeTime, It Was Awesome, I Could Never Put Those Memories Into Words. But As Time Passed, There Was Never A Day I Yearned For Those Days Back. I Even Begged You To Bring Em Back. Tough Luck. Never Came True.
I Loved You, I Really Did. Even Those First 8Mths & 25 Days, I Still Showed You Love. I Still Made Sure I Was There For You. Made Sure I Was A Good Girlfriend. & You Won My Heart, Yes You Did. But Why Did You Change To This Boy I Don't Even Know.
I Perservered As Much As I Could. Yearned All Those Months, Nearly A Year. For A Miracle To Happen. Though It Caused Me Much Hurt & Pain, I Stayed On. Told Myself I Was Stronger Than That. But.. I Think I Gave It More Than My All. & To Know It's Not Enough Dosen't Beat Any Other Hurt I Went Through.
Someone Once Told Me, What Goes Around Comes Around. Karma Hits You Hard. But Who Ever Said Karma Was Created By Mankind Himself. Its Almost Like Yearning For A Good Gift Just Cause You Gave Someone Else One. You Don't Hurt Someone Else Just Cause They Hurt You. Karma Meant That That Person Would Go Through More Hurt Than He/She Has Put You Through. But According To Me By God. Not By A Person.
People, If You Know Who Im Talking About, Which I Think Is Pretty Obvious, Hold Your Thoughts Right There. This Is Just My Part Of The Story. A Story Always Has Two Parts To It. I Always Believed In Fair Play. & This Is My Page, A Place Where I Want To Let Some Things Off My Head. Don't Judge That Person Just Cause You Read This. Maybe Only To Me, This Person Behaves This Way. This Person Could Just Be Your Most Awesome Friend Or Who Knows, Your Soul Partner.
& 'You'. Sorry If I Said Anything Hurting. But At Some Point Of Time It Just Has To Pour Out.
Im Sorry If This Post Disturbed Anybody Or What So Ever. Im Done.
& Oi, Im Not Depressed Or Anything. & No, I Do Not Regret Anything. I'll Just Take All This As A Stepping Stone For Me. Everyone Goes Through A Downfall Right. Not Like You're Going To Just Ly There Right. You Eventually Get Up, Look Around To See If AnyBody Looked, And Then Skip Away. Okay I Don't Know For Your'll But That's What I'll Do. LOLs!
& I'll Do A Proper Post Maybe Tomorrow Since This Is Uber Long. Take Care Ya'll.
PEACE & LOVE!
Honestly, After That Day, It Made Me Realise, The One You've Been With, Wasn't Uma Mageswari D/o Ravindran. Maybe By Appearance, Yes, It Was Me, But All The Other Things, Attitude, Character, Bubbly-Ness, They Weren't Me At All. They Were Just That Girl You Wanted Me To Be. & Sadly, Without Me Realising, I Played Along. I Became The Girl You Wanted Me To Be. But Thank God, It Was Only With You That I Behaved That Way. With The Others, I Was Still Myself. Maybe That's Why Nothing Else With The Girls Changed. We Could Crank Up All Kinds Of Lame Jokes & Still Laugh Our Heart's Content Out. Till The Others Around Us Would Stare At Us.
I Want To Be Myself Again. That Girl Who Worries About Nothing, But Whether That Smile Is Still Stuck To Her Face. Cause She Know's Nothings Going To Bring Her Down. The Girl Who Skips To School Despite Turning 17. That Girl Who Still Loves To Balance Herself On Those Sidewalks. The Girl Who's Ever So Hyper Active Like Crazy, Like She's Taken The Whole Stockpile Of Sugar. That Girl Who Sings & Hums To Her Favorite Song Of The Day Throughout Till She Hits The Bed. That Girl Whos Greeting Everybody, Sometimes Even People She Dosen't Know. That Girl Who Dances In Public Despite All The On-Lookers. The Girl Who Looks Up The Sky Each Time The Day's Going To End & Whisper, "Thanks For Everything, I Had The Best Day Ever", Followed By A Flying Kiss. Yeah, I Want To Be That Girl Again.
You Know, When You Love Someone, All You Wana Do Is See Them Smile, Laugh Like There's No Tomorrow. & If Leaving You Is What Makes Them Happy, Though You Know It's The Uttmost Hurt You're Going To Go Through, You Say, Fly Butterfly, You're Now Free. & Honestly, If Anger Is What You're Feeling, Then That Was Never Love, That Was Just A Whole New Something. & If You Feel Like Giving Some Of Your Best Shots In The Form Of Violence, Then She Was Just Your Punching Bag All Along. This Bag That Was There For You Whenever You Just Needed To Vent Your Anger On Something.
I Did Everything I Could. I Swear. I Made Mistakes, I Do Admit Them. But I Changed, For You, For The Better, Because I Loved You. Because I Assumed You Were My Everything, The Shoulder I Could Ly On. For SomeTime, It Was Awesome, I Could Never Put Those Memories Into Words. But As Time Passed, There Was Never A Day I Yearned For Those Days Back. I Even Begged You To Bring Em Back. Tough Luck. Never Came True.
I Loved You, I Really Did. Even Those First 8Mths & 25 Days, I Still Showed You Love. I Still Made Sure I Was There For You. Made Sure I Was A Good Girlfriend. & You Won My Heart, Yes You Did. But Why Did You Change To This Boy I Don't Even Know.
I Perservered As Much As I Could. Yearned All Those Months, Nearly A Year. For A Miracle To Happen. Though It Caused Me Much Hurt & Pain, I Stayed On. Told Myself I Was Stronger Than That. But.. I Think I Gave It More Than My All. & To Know It's Not Enough Dosen't Beat Any Other Hurt I Went Through.
Someone Once Told Me, What Goes Around Comes Around. Karma Hits You Hard. But Who Ever Said Karma Was Created By Mankind Himself. Its Almost Like Yearning For A Good Gift Just Cause You Gave Someone Else One. You Don't Hurt Someone Else Just Cause They Hurt You. Karma Meant That That Person Would Go Through More Hurt Than He/She Has Put You Through. But According To Me By God. Not By A Person.
People, If You Know Who Im Talking About, Which I Think Is Pretty Obvious, Hold Your Thoughts Right There. This Is Just My Part Of The Story. A Story Always Has Two Parts To It. I Always Believed In Fair Play. & This Is My Page, A Place Where I Want To Let Some Things Off My Head. Don't Judge That Person Just Cause You Read This. Maybe Only To Me, This Person Behaves This Way. This Person Could Just Be Your Most Awesome Friend Or Who Knows, Your Soul Partner.
& 'You'. Sorry If I Said Anything Hurting. But At Some Point Of Time It Just Has To Pour Out.
Im Sorry If This Post Disturbed Anybody Or What So Ever. Im Done.
& Oi, Im Not Depressed Or Anything. & No, I Do Not Regret Anything. I'll Just Take All This As A Stepping Stone For Me. Everyone Goes Through A Downfall Right. Not Like You're Going To Just Ly There Right. You Eventually Get Up, Look Around To See If AnyBody Looked, And Then Skip Away. Okay I Don't Know For Your'll But That's What I'll Do. LOLs!
& I'll Do A Proper Post Maybe Tomorrow Since This Is Uber Long. Take Care Ya'll.
PEACE & LOVE!
'Umaaa!
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